WANT

Dear Colleagues,

Analogies Across the Curriculum
(Courses without Borders)

SCHOOL MODE

“What is it to be here but to want.”
Rick Barot

Less poetically: to be lacking, needy—
full of desire.

thievery
greed lying

Aside from the negative stigma generated
by my denial in-denial, that triad elegantly
describes my impoverishment.

Hungry & Thieving & Lying like anything.
With me: poor, always wanting .

Edward Taylor prayed in poetry,
dissipating somewhat (I bet) the
anxiety generated prior to his
Sunday morning preaching.
.
Liberal Art

We went round and round in class trying to
find a reason for not finding a reason for
our anxiety. Sky rocket’s delight: constellations
of exclamation, assertion, digression, trans-
gression, returning againand again to the initial
point of departure & origins of our converse-
action:

Anxiety is FEAR
looking for a cause, damnit
a reason why,
a because & affect
an explanation
a scapegoat
some demon
so as to shore up my
homeland security
SYSTEM's bells &
whistles

Perfect—as far as I’m concerned.
SCHOOL MODE: how this kind of
round & round argos-argument will
unveil (apocalyptically) the inadequacies
of our language, discourse, belief &
disbelief systems bringing us properly
to a state of paralysis: aporia, no pores,
no exit -- stunned & stunning stupidity:
just RIGHT for study and student-dom,
or what I call Liberal Art as opposed to
those disciplines you guys major in: the
liberal arts, instrumental & vocational like
anything.

Alright, ok: Arguing is a Waste of Time
from the standpoint of the liberal arts and
the mission of each discipline.

BUT from the standpoint of Liberal ART:
call it wasting time in the best sense, de-
constructing assumptions (ouch, ooo, ooof,
damnit) and maybe reinventing some wheels
so as to zero-base and work IT up from
old scratch.

(I admit: I've been ANXIOUS ever since
classtime—that gut twist & burn in the chest,
like boy scouts are roasting weenies under my
sternum—bastards. And I want to know WHY,
damnit. I'm looking for a because-&-affect.
Fear looking for a scapegoat! Or a pill.)

xxxooo, Sam