Do Good People Generate Bad Behavior?

Liberal Art
 
The Goodies generate The Weasels.
Good behavior provokes Bad.
Prohibition:  stimulus package
for boot leggings & so it goes:
best of human intentions not
with standing “without
contraries is no
Progress.”
 
There’s  a GAP between what I know,
am  aware of—luxury in which I live,
for example and have been raised. on
the one hand, and the misery heard
round the whirl, massive men leading
lives of quite desperate desperation. .
 
Ongoing disgruntlement: dissatisfied,
uneasy:  full of vague desire & arbitrarily
assigned direct objects, sitting and
ruminating to come  to terms with
ongoing dissatisfaction &  spinach  
when I  know there are starving
children in India & China & Africa,
soldiers dying in the middle east, hard
times on farm & bayou and how come
(I’m just asking) there is a gap, gape,
chasm, chaos between what I know &
how I feel & a lack of correlation between
the  sufficient and the sustainable? Having
it and not having IT?
 
Just describing here.
Not a condemnation.
Wonder full is all.
Awesome the  stunning
disconnect between affect
& intellect. I turn it up so
the two don’t conflate,
collapse &  confuse or
I’ll never know how
it is they relate.
 
Why doesn’t what I know effect  affect so
that I feel comfortable in my own skin
when I re-mind myself  about  3^rd world
countries, the stoning of fenale adulterers
and folks worse off make me feel grateful for
what I have and chip away at least on some
thing like self-absorbed worry, anxiety,
envy, resentment, yearning for I  know
not what so as to make me feel better
about myself and my self steam. .   
 
Jog
Lift weights.
Practice Yoga.
Journaling
Watch what I eat
Binge and purge.
Cut myself. Keep up
with foreign affairs. Help
someone worse off Manage
time management better. Get
proper diagnosis & prescription
drugs for restless legs, attention
deficiency & multi-tasking hyper
activity: Ways of Knowing that aim
to effect, regulate, govern  Ways of Feeling.  .
 
Sampling: Mel Gibson and Tiger Woods and
John Edwards and Larry King and Mark Sanford
and Jesse James are models for me, inspiring  me
to wonder with uncanny  appreciation  about  the
gap between Knowing (of  which I have much
invested) and  Feeling (of which  I have no control)
and I am stunned by the lack of  correlation between
being Loaded  and Successful, the world on a string
sitting on a rainbow and yet can’t get no satisfaction
no no no so as to be wooking a wub in
alla wong paces.  

“The heart has reasons that reasons know not.”
An old conundrum, riddle, perplexity, Gordian
Naught,  double bind, Chinese finger trap, rock
& hard place, devil and deep blue see.
 
How I  feel on the one hand.
What I know on the other.
And why  can’t they
just get along?
 
What good is knowing better if don’t make
feeling feel better seeing as feeling good is
what counts,  damnit—not much good can
be said for not feeling good & any one can
listen to radio songs and learn that free. .
 
I want to know why.