To Students Dying Young

To Students  Dying Young
 
 (Not what you know or don't  but
  whether  you can put it in play.
 Need we argue?)
 
Existence (being) Precedes Essence (meaning)
 
           GUILTY (owing a debt)
 
Can't speak for the rest of you but I feel it all the
time: the guilt: debt, what I owe--taking it for
granted of course but never the less, guilty and
it makes good sense in general.

Guilt, of course.
 
I mow lawn, skin heads off snakes crawling out
from under our hemlock, pretend  to listen to others,
skim student essays, looking for errors & grist for
instructional comments, delete  e-mail from  colleagues,
look out the window long times during work hours,
waste paper, drive a low mileage car, watch sit coms,
read  novels at night, don't vote or attend  faculty
meetings and if I  did  I'd  feel worse. Damned if I do.
Damned if I don't..
 
Fear and hate and ignore-ance follow me all the days
of my life spinning  from my small attention-efficient
focused purpose, goals,  & assessable outcomes:
damaged & damaging if I do and  if I don't.
 
Guilty as charged.
Charging  beyond my ways and means
and it don't pay  to slap direct objects
on it (the feeling), assign reasons-why,
declaring because & affect, applying
hermeneutics and determining explanations.

It (the feeling) comes  with the territory called  being
here now:  fundamental (es, esse) – my essence &
original spin...
     
                       GAME
 
Ted Transcendental loves football so much; the
game itself win or lose not with standing: how
it's played is what counts.
 
Never cherishes or applauds a team, despite the
clamor of Cheese Heads and fanatics; taking sides
skews his appreciation & gratitude: thank you,
thank you very much. . 
 
If there's anything Ted detests about the whole deal
it's  the partisans. Fanatics: their team spirit.
 
Rooting: Half-asssed. Partial.

Occluding  the whole
& holy.