Performance Anxiety

News from Noise 

A dumb ass spoke with a man's voice and checked

the prophet's folly. (2 Peter:16)

Performance anxiety spikes thorns in the flesh &

plants peas under my mattresses I could call concern

with  middle-east global warnings, failure to diagnose

a young girls' ADHD, too-big houses going up in Chevy

Chase, rising gas & its ripple  effect on groceries, oil

soiling  Lebanese beaches, Ford's dubious future & the

increased cost of a hybrid Prius.

The Error! The Error!

But what actually eats at me is my own performance

anxiety. Would I take performance enhancing  drugs

if they'd enable me? Gene doping to enhance sustainable

life long liberal artistry talking the walk, embracing

oppositions, relishing discrepancies, nurturing the gaps

of wrath nestled in nightly global village news of local

food feast &  famine going on: turn it up, nail it down,

 put it in play as if all these facts & figures were making
me nervous? Or just performance anxiety?  Merely.

Can I integrate the trivia? May I?

Thank God I'm saved, salved, sealed & anesthetized so

as  to watch, wonder & still worry about my personal

performance, hip & knee co-ordination, lawn-mowing

obligations, pesky house-keeping details re: 8 o’clock

classes, wood thrush  closing  down summer residence,

turkeys foraging under the  Laursen flag pole, and the

coyotes calling out sympathy at the sound of freight trains

whistling up from Rt 71 Shell Oil Convenience & Laundry

as the Jones Mountain Mormon  Tabernacle Insect, Katydid,

& Toad Chorale cranks out a  ratcheting all night long

performance &  no anxiety need apply.