Call & Response
(Courses w/o Borders Series)
Dear DD&D,
description of an aspect if not the whole …
(never the whole, can’t ever nail down the whole and
holy, though don’t I try? I’ve got a hammer)
…of the class, course, convention that meets twice
weekly in the windowless room.
Very interesting, says Jane:
discrete, digital, self-segregated souls,
each an individual, insular, outsider sealed-in
to my own bubble, box, cave, agenda, aims,
goals, purposes: each ME, a center-of-the-universe
gazing into a pool of mirrors fascinated by my own
reflection but thinking it’s OTHER PEOPLE I am
seeing, making statements & observations that reveal
ME,
I’m remarking on other stuff—monkeys, movies, books,
weather, sporting teams, environmental crisis. It’s all
about me—do I have a problem with that? How could \
it be other wise?
see me hear me touch me feed me
Whatever the token topic of conversation, the true (primordial)
agenda is always relationship : strokes, status: phatic
communion (how you doon? What’s up? You ok?),
fit-in, fit-out: fitness.
IT is never about the trash or the dishes or the DUI or Grade
Point Average or E = MCr2 or who gets the children or the dog…
Mere vehicles for What Counts.
Need we argue?
THIS (what I just said) may address if not explain the
assessment below. It’s typical. It makes sense. It expresses
and reflects what it is to be a ONE: enclosed, closet-dweller
among other closet-dwellers.
Or call IT l “cave.” Metaphors are always inadequate and any
one can push one over the edge. Replace. Substitute. Switch
in mid stream. The more ways of talking the better, if not the merrier.
Converse-action uber alles. Smoke signals from the caves on a
windy day: basis for relationship and community. Common
groundlessness--prerequisite for getting on the same page,
mixed meta force not worth standing..
&&&&&&&&&&
I have no response, here. None of these things
feel respond-able.
responding to any particular written
the metalogues every once in a while,
but for the most part, it's mind-on-page, self-segregated,
individual, refractory. I don't know what to do with that.
Do I follow suit and just talk about myself, my thoughts,
totally
I can do that. I can talk about my own existential crisis,
my total desire to sit and chain smoke until I cough out
my lungs like a frog
all the crap on it before I try
nothing really makes sense except from
specific point of view, how everything still messes
with you, if only BECAUSE of how specific that sense is.
I mean, honestly, it feels somehow justified to write
out sh*t like that.
for sam's class, in the back of my
strain of thought going along, well-suppressed, that
wants to make sure that everyone else knows exactly
what I'm going
And, I mean, if I search for it, I can usually connect
a few points, relate
to force it to work for myself. And I
and at the end of it, I feel like all I'm doing is filling
in the blanks.
Maybe I'm just so totally drawn into my own cave that
I'm having trouble
Or maybe everyone is missing everyone
Basically, I think it'd be cool if more people responded
to each other, in the
separate, connected by our general
a class, a collective, parallel to the talk-talk-talk.
Ultimate desire, I suppose. Nothing I can really do
about it, except try and develop my own individualism
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